I think chaotic is far too mild to describe the happenings the past 3 months. There were good times and there were bad times, but I think both worked together even if one isn’t exactly what anyone wants. The good times was definitely taking a moment to enjoy the summer with loved ones, doing things and learning more about one’s self than any other time in the past. For me personally, I can definitely say I now know more about my emotions, goals as well as my fears. The bad times sadly, had to guide me into learning about this. Which in a way is a bitter-sweet success. It may sound strange, but I wouldn’t change what happened, even if I had overreacted just a bit on a few occasions.
I always believe that no matter how low you are, how frustrated and at the end you feel about everything, there will be a guiding light that will help you back up on your feet. Sure, it’s all got to do with how you see it and what you believe in, if you believe at all. But there’s nothing wrong with having a spark of hope, right? It makes everyone human, no matter what their beliefs are. With this entry, I’m not really trying to bring up the entire whoo haa about things like God does exist and you better believe it. No, I’m making this to express my thoughts on such a topic.
Japan was struck by a terrible earthquake and tsunami on March 11th. Many people died and so many families are now homeless with no chance of going back to rebuild it back up. Upon watching some YouTube videos about this tragedy, I always saw heart-warming comments as well as sickening ones. The good ones were from people that genuinely felt for the country, its people and would have done everything to give a helping hand. Most even left prayers for the lost lives and the families left behind. And then you have the other side of the coin where others were saying it was a punishment for Japan, that if God existed, he wouldn’t have let that happen as well as many, many other nasty things. But you know what? And I know this may sound twisted, but everything happens for a reason. Despite how terrible this was, this quake brought the world together on another level in my opinion. It gave everyone the opportunity to think more about giving and caring for another. While it is sad that the quake is almost forgotten news now, it does make me feel better to know that even so, the country is still getting helped from ones that didn’t see it as a trend that was set aside. I won’t go into detail about the nuclear plants since that’s a whole new story, but I’m amazed at how strong the Japanese are right now. They may have nothing anymore, but they don’t seem to want to give up their hope that things will get better. And it will. Just have faith in it. Just don’t snub someone else’s faith by telling them there is no God and that they deserved it. Such things will not help a 5 year old get a warm bed and food. No one deserves to be taken out of their home, and past war should be left rested so that everyone can move on to a better future no matter what the conditions are.
I may have not made much sense, but that’s just part of what I feel. Hope, belief and care is what everyone has in them. Even if you don’t believe in the Lord above, a quick prayer won’t do harm. Just because we can’t see Him (or Her if one prefers), it doesn’t mean he isn’t there. After my few personal troubles, I can say that I’ve never felt this near to Him and the Angels than I am now. Believing and listening to them has helped be more confident. Sure, some days you just want to say fuck it and hide forever in a corner because something bad happened, but if you take a deep breath, relax, you’ll know that it won’t be like that forever. My favourite quote would be that if life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. Or else you’ll just accept the lemons and suck on the sour forever if you don’t do something about it. Just ask the angels for help, and you will receive it if you're open to them.
Long story short, try and open up more. You’d be surprised.
